I recently had friendship problems with NatouMJSonic. I saw what she wrote as well but she did not tell the whole truth. Let me tell you my version and what really happened. Because what its version disturbs me a bit, she mainly wrote my faults.
I will start at the beginning when we met 2 years ago. At first I was curious to know her, she immediately offered me to do a RolePlayer and I accepted. But I was far from suspecting the continuation. But before I talk about the bad things, I want to tell you about the good times I had with her, I like her as my sister, she is funny, creative and caring. We had good conversations. It's true that I was asking for queries but it was for fun and sharing. I liked to see his creativity and I also made drawings for him in return. I had in mind to make other drawings for her, I did not tell her because it was a surprise. I am not a hypocritical profiteer as she says.
The story of the RP was simple, I had to play both Michael Jackson and my avatar. She played her avatar character too. Everything went well until she confessed her feelings to Michael. Even if it is a fiction, I was not serene with his statement. Wanting to please him, I played the game. I should not have. I had very bad, because I do not like romance especially if it is a fantasy about my idol that I consider my brother. Already there are a lot of love fantasies about him, I did not want to do that in the RP. I tried to explain my ill-being but she said "It's just a fiction, You take too much to heart .. ". I think many of you do not like some fictions or their content. There are things that can bother us. That's what she did not want to understand, I tried to negotiate with her and her couple desires. I offered him another fictitious couple where his lover is not Michael and not a look-alike of him but nothing to do, she did not want to hear anything and if it was not enough, in the Secondary Rps, she wanted to be in Couple with one of my characters from Michael. So I started accumulating anger and I cracked. I said horrible things that I did not think I regret so much. It was the famous December dispute and it blocked me. Taking remorse, I wrote her a letter of apology and then she apologized for hurting me and then we reconciled. But unfortunately it did not last. She offered me to make a new Rp where she plays the Michael of her fiction which replaces the real one I was supposedly playing to make me more comfortable, I accepted for tried despite that I'm not very romantic.
It was also a mistake on my part to myself, if you want to know why I hate love and romance stories, it is because I have had bad experiences in this field. Even if this Rp is a simple fiction, bad memories have surfaced again. I was trying to make her understand that she could make an exception but she thought I was not sincere. Concerning my couples of my characters, it's just because I have preferences like everyone else and they live the love I would never have in reality. But for her, it's hypocrisy, she did not want to understand that I feel things differently, I did not ask her much. But what really bothered me was that she was using the Rp we used to write her current fiction. I had the impression that she wrote it because she did not have what she wanted in the RP, it made me feel sorry. Besides, I had noticed that there was only the Rp that interested him, I can of course be wrong in what I say but that's what she showed me. Because when I asked her to take a break to give me time to think about it, she begged me to please her, that the RP was missing her and that she was bored without it. And yet, we spoke outside Rp because I wanted to know her with real words, even if she told me that on the internet she does not want to talk too much about her privacy, I respect that. But she did not respect my opinion and my opinions. There was another dispute, it went from bad to worse. But this time, it was she who mixed reality and fiction, that's what made me even more upset. We had set the rules but they were not always kept, the fault of the two of us.
She was in a hurry that I accept her fictitious Michael as she had accepted my own. I kindly told him to give me time to get used to him. But in the second fiction, she fell a lead. She finally told me she was jealous of my characters. I comforted her then it was there that she created Lorenzo. But what really disturbs me is she absolutely wants a look-alike Michael as a lover in the RP while she already has what she wants in the fictions she writes. Even if it is because she is single and she created it for pleasure, I found her narcissistic behavior. I created my characters of Michael Jackson because I have no brother and sister, I'm alone. Michael is a model for me, a source of inspiration and I also love him because we look a little bit more because of the suffering he endured alive. While NatouMJSonic can have a buddy in real life, she focused on her fictions so I was worried about her. Even she wanted to force me to accept love and have a buddy. Of course, I am not romantic like her but I respect her choices but she began to doubt my sincerity, it is not because we are a little different that we have Not the right to be friends. Even though she said she has "everything" to accept from me, I'm not convinced. If she had really accepted me in spite of our differences and our preferences, she would not have been misbehaving like her last days. She started putting distance between our avatars in both Rps, because she doubted me. I had so much trouble when she pulled out all that. I explained that my friendship to her is sincere, that I accept her as she is. But alas, everything has gone wrong. I wrote another letter to tell her what I was worried about her attitude and she took it badly. She called me a hypocrite, I could do more and I blocked her. She then apologized in turn but she changed her mind at once and blamed all the blame on me, that she's tired of feeling guilty. I then told everything to my best friend Kuroyume66 and she told him the bottom of her thoughts. As she said, NatouMJSonic again apologized by writing a second letter. I was hurting too, I do not like this kind of situation. I love NatouMJSonic as a big sister despite the harm we have done each other. But for no reason, it blocked me definitively. Anger and hatred invaded my broken heart. Under the influence of anger, I wrote "Do not support NatouMJSonic", I am still a little angry at her because she did not acknowledge her share of responsibility. But it's not that she and I are in the cause of what happened, ZeFrenchM has interfered as she said. But instead, he was always on his side to blame me. I had a great feeling of injustice.
I never complain for no reason. If she had not interfered with this problem that concerned us and she, it would not be there. If she had listened to what I had told her from the beginning and maybe if we had not done Rp hurriedly, we could have gotten to know each other better with real conversations. As ZeFrencheM did not trust me anymore, NatouMJSonic followed her while she could think for herself and say "It's true that I'm wrong too .." but no, I'm the "bad girl" then That I am not the only fault.
I think I said everything about what happened.
I really badly, I love all my friends even if we have differences and preferences. NatouMJSonic rejected me just because I do not like romance as much as I had accepted her. Concerning my gallery, it is true that I made drawings a little gore but that was a period when I felt depressed and suicidal. Then I made other designs a little more joyful. Drawing is a reflection of my soul and all that I feel. If I am sad or angry, my drawings will be morbid. If I am happy or neutral, I vary my drawings with fantastic creatures or my characters. I also like to make requests that my friends ask me, I do not always have time but I do my best to please them, I like to make their characters to my style as I like to see my characters at their Unique and cool style. But again, I do not want to be forced to do what I do not want to do especially if I have no pleasure. This is what I wanted to make NatouMJSonic understand but in vain. Never do I do wrong voluntarily, I do not like to make suffer the people who matter to me. I never want to live again this situation and I do not wish anybody to live it. Despite hatred and anger, I can not erase NatouMJSonic from my heart, even if I am only a slut in her eyes , It is so for me also unfortunately. She banged me, she lied to me, betrayed and treated like a shit! After if you are on his side, either do not make me shit. Because I really want to forget that. And if I still have friends who still love me, leave them. I love you all my friends who are always there for me as I am always there for you too;
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